I’ll Be Fine…

Death whispers suicide to me,
This shallow grave offers a place to sleep,
This blade is on the verge of sinking too deep.

I’m frightened, my skin starts to crawl,
I’m in pain, this blood says it all,
I’m weak, hoping not to trip and fall.

My heartbeat slows down by the second,
Nobody should know that I am saddened,
This burden is more than I had reckoned.

It’s okay, I’m normally like this,
Every part of this life is like an abyss,
I need The Grim Reaper’s fatal kiss.

I wish for something, even a sign,
Something to better up, or to end this life,
Until then, don’t worry, I’ll be fine.

Letter To The Emo … Angel.

Hey, it’s me, Jay,
We met the other day.

Remember me ?!

I’m the boy whose joy you took away,
Whom you tried to lead astray.

Still can’t recall me ?!

Because of you my heart frays,
Sorrow eats me up like dead prey.

How about now ?!

You made me bleed,
Every night, I’d hurt and weep.

Do you remember my first frown ?!

You made it intense and deep,
Made my knees fall so weak.

Oh, so now you wanna talk ?!

You made me suffer in unbroken silence,
Caused me so much commotion, unspoken violence.

Remember all your mocks ?!

In your darkness I was trapped,
In the ink of my pen you had me wrapped.

Remember how you locked me away ?!

You isolated me from my life,
Had me talking to walls and contemplating bloody knives.

… I hate you so much,
For you I have no love.

Rest in flames, you deserve to burn,
I’ll let your ashes lurk free, no golden urn.

I’m in a better place now, and I am not alone,
I’m happy, and smiling with my body and soul…

From Yours Truly: The child you treated so cold.

Missing…

I see tears in my eyes,
I hear sobs in my cries,
I feel sorrow in my sighs,
There’s only blurs in my sight…

Tremulous, I fear losing you,
Cuz what I feel for you is so true,
I’m sad, blame this tormentous gloom,
Listen to the weeps in my blood’s pool…

From inside-out I’m broken,
This pain is inexplicable, harsh and unspoken,
In this trap of hurt my soul is frozen,
I wanna escape yet the doors won’t open…

I feel alone, so torn apart,
Please whisper words to my wrecked heart,
I can’t do this, it’s really hard,
Convince me to sleep so I don’t cut…

My heart is missing a piece,
I don’t know what to do,
This profound pain won’t cease,
I’m really missing you…

Shadows Of Gloom…

Dark nights are hard nights,
All nights have no light;
I’m torn apart from the inside,
Behind a smile I just hide.

Lemme cut my hand and bleed to death,
Let blood stain my bed,
Use the grave to end this hell,
I don’t need to cry for help.

These tears feel so good,
Yet to wipe them away I wish I could,
I’m suffering in silence like I should,
Broken asunder like an old wood.

I’m under cold shadows,
Deeply shady yet shallow;
In this sorrow I wallow,
If only this rough patch was more mellow.

The Broken Mirror…

I see myself on a broken mirror,
Tears torn and frozen forever;
It’s shattered yet I see my face,
I see its sorrow behind the smile’s shades,
In every crack I see profound shame,
The reflection bleeds loud pain.

It’s broken in cracked shatters,
My sorrow written in black letters;
I’m trapped in a cold embrace,
It’s cold, I need to escape;
This mirrors shows hate
That burns in me like slow flames.

My reflection speaks in slurs,
I see my soul getting swallowed by blurs,
My fear looks like a dark curse,
My heartaches are growing worse;
This is my broken mirror,
In it I’m trapped forever…

Sing Me A Lullaby

I rest in a bed of gloom,
So cold, in an empty dark room,
No lights, just sorrow’s dull moon,
I’m waiting to die soon.

I don’t feel like speaking,
I’m too weak, I’ll just continue weeping,
I’d yell for help, but everyone’s sleeping,
From my eyes to pillow tears are seeping.

I need to just call it a night,
But instead I cry and faintly sigh,
Ssshhh, worry not about my plight,
Just sing me a lullaby.

Open Your Eyes

Please look at me,
I’m fading in the mirage imagery…

Open your eyes and see my tears,
See the all these leakings of fear…

Open your eyes and see my sorrow,
Deep sadness of tears so shallow…

Open your eyes and see my pain,
It’s flaring from the fading blood trails…

Open your eyes and see my cracks,
I’m broken apart, blinded and trapped…

Open your eyes and see me weep,
Curled on they floor, cold and weak…

Open eyes and see my insides,
So dark, no light at sight…

Open your eyes and see,
It all resembles a horrible dream…